Yesterday

YESTERDAY, while I was running errands Duke called. 

 Yes, on a Saturday!!

They told Andrew that first thing tomorrow, Dr. Allan Friedman will review my path labs and scans. They will call Monday afternoon or Tuesday to set up my appointment.

Soo...my Neurosurgeon is one of the best in the area. He is “young” and Dr. A. Friedman is his mentor. Thanks to my Mom's Bosses (they are Doctor's) they have checked into my Neurosurgeon. They said his credentials are fantastic and found that out (mentor thing...). They said his medical schooling is phenomenal.

Dr. Allan Friedman is an AMAZING Neurosurgeon. Look up his name. You will see...

Just for comfort for me I looked up the Top Neurosurgeon's in the US.

US News Health

There are 624 neurosurgeon's on this list.

Dr. Friedman has a star next to his name. That means he is in the top 1%.

Yes, so my Neurosurgeon is awesome and a protege of one of the top 1% in the Nation.

He (Dr.Grossi) is respected enough that one of the top 1% is willing review MY tumor.

It kind of makes me feel the same I did when I watched George W. Bush speak at ECU.

Star struck..amazed...kind of a cloud nine feeling...just this time wrapped in a nice blanket of fear too.

This entire situation is now at 358 days in the making.

It is scary, overwhelming, anxiety filled,denial.....and add about 1 billion other feelings in there. (But still very hopeful throughout it all.)

I am not sure if there are really a billion feelings but it sure feels like it!

Some moments it doesn't feel real and others it sure does. Here and there for a few minutes I almost forget about it.

I am going to share what Andrew said after he took that phone call:

“Shit just got real.”

I keep visiting the Duke Tumor Center's web site and try to imagine myself walking up to it the day of my appointment.

I have told Andrew that there will probably be a stain or puddle on the ground following me as we walk in there.