Buzz.buzz..where is he?!

2 days until my next appointment.

OK, well it's almost 9:30p on Saturday night

I guess it's more like 1.25 days.

Yeah.

Logan at 1:45a will be 4!!

Man.

He was one of the first big things

of our plans changing.

God knew it is what we needed.

He only was preparing us for all

we are currently 

and 

in the future will face.

Logan was God's plan.

We accepted it.

We knew there was a reason.

I see more of that now.

He showed us we needed to plan

our Kids closer than we thought we would.

That way we have our 3 right now

instead of right now being unable to try for

a third.

He knows.

I was put on bed rest at 36 weeks with Logan.

He stopped growing 

and 

so did my weight and belly.

My placenta lost a lot of blood flow

and

I was having low amniotic fluid.

I had 4 days of bed rest before I

went to Duke Perinatology.

I was warned I may not make it

through the weekend to that appointment.

But I did

.

At that appointment they sent us straight to the hospital.

They wouldn't let me go home to pick up my

bags.

They said someone else could bring them.

So yeah.

I panicked.

I was very over the top when I got there.

It took me a couple hours to really start to calm

a little.

We had one OB for 4 hours
 and
then there was the shift change

and

the OB who delivered Aidan came in.

He's pretty stinking awesome.

He told us that they thought Logan was 5 lb and about 5 oz

but said he could be a pound less or heavier

and

please don't hold it against them.

He then asked if we had a lap top.

He hopped on it

and

found a video.

He said since Aidan was an 8 lb baby

and

 that if Logan was as small as they thought

that the birth would be a little like this

Yeah.

I think Andrew laughed.

I kind of sat there.

I found it funny later.

So after a few hours later after 1am I asked

the nurse if I should switch sides

since they would rotate me every few minutes

after I had an epidural with Aidan.

She said, “Sure.”

So she helped move me.

Within 5 minutes I said, “Andrew, we need to buzz her I feel pressure.”

He buzzed her

she came right in to look

She said, “OH MY!”

I said, “I think he is coming out.”

She said, “Yes he is!”

She started buzzing the Special Care Nursery

who we needed in

and

buzzing Dr. D. Henderson

then

opening the door

yelling, “WHERE IS HE??!!”

I sat there holding onto the arm of the bed staring into nothing

and

focusing on my breathing

because I could feel all the pressure

and

him moving on his own.

She kept telling me don't push.

She kept fussing for him out the door

and

buzzing for him frequently.

He took a few minutes but walked in

and I said, “Thank God!”

He put on his scrub coat like thing

and

said, “OK you can push now.”
I said, “Thank God!”

and

I pushed not even half a push

and

small Bit fell on out.

Yeah.

Then I couldn't hold him

and

as our plan (which did not work with Aidan either)

for Andrew to cut the cord couldn't happen.

He went straight to Special Care.

They were concerned he wouldn't be able to breath

on his own.

He was pale but they decided it was because

Andrew and I are.

Then he got good APGAR scores

and

I finally got to hold him.

He screamed his lungs out.

Our little tiny

5lb 3oz 19 in

Sweet Precious Gift from God.

I got swarmed by Nurses.

They were afraid he wouldn't be able to feed

or

keep his oxygen up when in a car seat.

He proved everyone wrong.

We left the hospital

and

he was 4 lb 13oz.

He was perfect

just tiny!

He still is!

Can't believe 4 years have passed!

He's developmentally 2

but I don't care.

God wanted to make sure we had him.

He carried us through.

He helped us see how we needed

to redo our Family plan.

He truly continues to remind us to

be happy

and have Faith

with all these challenges we have faced

and

are still going to face.

He knows we will handle it

and

will remember he is guiding us through it all.

We are so Thankful he has given us

this chance

and

these challenges.

Bitty is doing a little better.

He's still not 100% well

but sure

hoping he finally gets there.

He's had two days of keeping his sugar well.

He is just a tad overwhelmed

he  spending a lot of time in his

therapy swing

which is what he does when

he needs the extra help

to try and get things organized.

He is also overstimulated

and

doing his stacking and balancing of blocks

on the edge of all counters and tables.

He is trying.

We got him to say he wants vanilla cupcakes.

Little Man will get them tomorrow

and

then again a new batch for his Family Birthday Party

when hopefully all the Boys are all 100% recovered.

Sure hope he is finally on the mend.

He has lost a good bit of weight

hoping it will come back soon.

So here are some photos we were playing with on the iPad today.

Logan loves mustaches

so we found a program to play with. 

Here's what Aidan chose to decorate for himself. 

Gotta make a goofy face. 

Nice right?!

Dear Lord,

I pray Logan can enjoy his birthday and get a break.

Thank you for our Sweet Little Men.

We appreciate these wonderful gifts you gave us.