Two posts in one day

The other day I did pretty well.

I did a few things for maybe 20 minutes

then sat on the couch for 4 hours.

I did not want to nap

because that messes with

my ability to sleep at night.

I type and mess on the blog

and

listen to music to try

and turn my thoughts off.

And then by the end of the night

I had enough energy to help straighten up for

about 20 minutes

and then was pretty much

ready for bed by 8p.

Yeah.

So here I am in the afternoon messing

on the iPad, my phone, iPod

or laptop.

I listen to Pandora

to music that I like to workout

or

run to.

This way I can almost feel like

I am moving to the music.

I don't like to dance unless

I get a good buzz on.

I think once all is said

and

done I am going to try

and

work through that.

Why not?!

Who cares what I look like?

If someone cares that's

their problem

not mine.

I may as well enjoy it.

Right?!

On a bad day I listen to the music

and

I act silly to Andrew
and
dance to him to the music.

Why not?!

It makes him laugh.

Then again the other day

after a shower

I was dancing in our bathroom

and

turned around

and

there he was.

I about fell over

and

laughed super hard.

A lot of it is rap-like music

a lot of the songs

say bad words

which still sometimes

pop out of my mouth,

they also say to shake your butt

or

stick it out

and

I just act goofy to it.

Why not?!

It's at least a coping mechanism for me

and

typically I use exercise or running.

I will get back to that.

I SO can't wait.

In the meantime I am trying to find something

to work with.

Aidan has loved singing

and

rhythm ever since he was 16 months.

He loves all sorts of music.

Adult (heh) and kids.

He also makes a lot of his own.

Logan has just started to sing.

Every so often he dances too.

:)

He favorite song to sing lately is the

ABC's and Stacy's Mom.

HAH.

D likes to sing too.

He will dance

and

sometimes join me

for about 10 seconds before he hides.

D sings all sorts of songs too.

I love it.

It makes me smile

and

laugh.

These Boys are wonderful.

Anyways, trying to find some ways for coping

and

a little annoyed I can't do much.

I will make up for it when I get better.

Trying to have patience and listen to what God

is trying to share with us.

Keeping the Faith and Hope

and

remembering to keep

my determination

and

butt kicking

ready for all the

challenges we are coming to face.

Here's a photo collage of me.
I was being stupid..yeah I am bored. 

The bottom left photo I circled where I still have some 

swelling. 

You have to really look at it. 

My face is just a tad unbalanced still. 

It will take well over a month for it to all go down. 

but yeah...

so the bottom right photo is the same photo

without a circle on it.