Walking, Church, Embarrassed

I promise a big post to come.

Right now I am zapped again.

Walking 2.2 miles at a super slow pace

wore me out.

I came home

and

couldn't do anything for the rest of the day.

I went to bed early

and

slept all night

and

still woke up tired.

I went to Church

and

it was the younger Priest

doing Mass.

He goes very slow through

communion.

I was even more exhausted from

the time of kneeling.

To the point that when I went to receive

communion I had a hard time.

Before receiving it you are to bow

the accept it

and

you always say, “Amen.”

Well, this Lady

lost her balance bowing

and

tried to recover.

I accepted the communion

and

was embarrassed by the balance issue

and

then said, “Thank you.”

Ummmmmm, yeah.

I quickly said, “Amen as I turned away

and did the sign of the cross.”

I was a tad mortified.

I have taken communion since I was

7 years old.

I know how to do it

but yes.

I almost felt like explaining myself

but

made myself stop.

Yup.

I came home and took a 3 hour nap

and

still went to bed at 9p

and

could have done it earlier.

I woke up not exhausted

but

a smidge tired.

I became exhausted at 10:30a.

Yes.

There was some meltdowns from our

2 oldest this morning.

Again a whole other post.

We hit the grocery stores

and

yes.

I am DONE.

Ready for sleep.

My head hurts.

As long as these things continue

I also can't drive.

I can drive again if

I am no longer exhausted

or

headaching.

I know this..

Dr. Grossi, warned me not to get frustrated.

He said to take it easy and expect it.

But, some normalcy sounds nice.

It will come again.

I so miss Boot Camp

and

can't wait to go back.

I also miss taking care of the Boys

all day.

Not like it was easy

and

we did not always have good days

but

it is what I signed up for

and

love doing.

I miss it.

The Boys miss it.

I miss it all.

Andrew takes on a lot of the responsibilities

I would do.

One of my Aunts is staying with us for a few more weeks.

My hopes are to rest a lot while she is here

and

then hopefully be in decent shape

to do more for the Kids

after she leaves.

Once I get used to that then I can start back to

Boot Camp.

That will be a slow process.

I was told to remember

I will not be where I was before

and

will have to build back up to it

slowly over time.

So I guess once I get that down pat

then I can finally take on running again.

Hopefully this makes some sort of sense.

My speech issues show up when

tired

and

even in my typing.

I usually edit a post about 4 times to try and fix it.

But the last post..go back and read it. I said, “I will be a neuro-psychologist...”

OBVIOUSLY NOT, but I will meet with her.

Yes...

and

this one I am too tired to reread right now.

Sooo...hopefully it is coherent.