Monday, April 15, 2013

Logey's 4 Yr Update and Momma's 31 updated

Bitty had a decent 4 year old check up.
The Doctor was thrilled with our
hopes and plans of
where he will be.
He was thrilled again with
all the help we supply to him.
He was even more thrilled
that we maintained it through all of
what is going on with me.
Bitty at 4 is
      37.75 in tall (5%)
and
      28.75 lbs (< 3 %)

He asked about his diet.
We explained how picky he is
and
how we work with it.

He was surprised and excited
and
said
we are giving him the best
well balance diet with
his picky self.

Yes.
Another area showing
Determination.

He was super happy.
He also remembered the other
Doctor talking about us
and
our situation.

I told him,
I am 31.
I won't die until 85-95 years old.

I am determined.
It will be done.

I know it is hard on everyone in our Family.
I know it is super incredible hard to even
try
and
wrap your mind around it,
accept it
or
really anything about it all.
It's not easy.

I just know I am stubborn.


I have for quite sometime wanted to be a Mother
I wanted only that.
OK, well, a wife too.
:)

But this is what I wanted
and
it is my job.

It will be done
and
continued to be done.

I won't lie.
Some days are not easy,
some are far from graceful.
Some days (more than others)
may be sending me to the
deep end
and
truly trying on every nerve
and
patience.

I am incredibly far from perfect
or
patient.

But I always try to go with my gut.
My Gut says, I will kick it.
I am determined
and
will do what we need to do for our Boys,
our Family.

God is giving us these challenges for a reason.

We get told we do well at things we do by a variety of people.

We don't see it that way,
we just see it as what we do
because we are supposed to
and
what we feel is best to do.

Perhaps we do, maybe that is part of why
we are challenged
because we will
perhaps get to something
super helpful for others out of it.

Knowledge, research, fund raising,
advocacy,
or
perhaps just simple enough
basic understanding
and
acceptance.

Who knows?!

I do truly feel we will slowly
be shown.

It will all be OK.
We will all find a way from it all.
When and how?!

Who knows,
I can only trust that He will
let us know at
the time we are needed.

It will all be OK.

I got my blood tests back today.
The NP says everything is normal!
It seems it's just the Keppra
and/or
stress
affecting how everything is going.

Today, after carpool for Logan and Aidan
I was able to walk our entire neighbor hood
with D, my Mom and our Babysitter.

I felt a little funny (kept it to myself)
but then felt a tad better.

I took a shower, fixed my hair,
ate some lunch,
took Logey in for his 4 year check up,
stopped by Target
and then headed home.

Finally at 5, my head pounded, felt swirly/dizzy/pressure/strange.
That is the longest it has taken to get to that point
AND
I did not nap.
I did take a few bouts of rest sitting today.
But HEY!!!
That is some progress!!

We'll see how tomorrow goes.
It will be just me and the Babysitter.
But we will see.

I had dinner and enjoyed it!
I drank some beer.
Yes...I did!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!
I am here!
I will celebrate.

I may get a little slow sometimes,
my words may get a little mixed up
but
I AM HERE!!

I am now 31!
Ready to feel like I am finally
starting my 30's.

I will WIN!

My WONDEFUL Boot Camp people stopped by yesterday.
They brought me Gigi's Cupcakes and beer.
:)

They are AWESOME people.
Thanks for Everything Ladies!

Thanks for everything Everyone!
Thank you for kind thoughts and prayers,
for Food
or treats.
We appreciate it!

I am so HAPPY to have a glimpse of being
part of me again
and
hoping it continues
over the weeks.

No matter how it all goes.
I WILL STOMP IT!!

Uploading photos and videos from the real camera...
Hoping to post those in the next day or so.

Thanks Everyone!

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